7. flow

Most of the time, what I "feel" is either boredom or mental stimulation. Spending time with other people is often boring. I'm detached because I'm distracted by something else that is stimulating my brain. I like being distracted. I spent a lot of my childhood alone in my room playing with Legos (I specifically liked the Technic type). If I wasn't playing Legos, I was building structures with wooden blocks, playing with an erector set, putting together models, flying rubber band powered balsa wood planes, etc. I have a craving to learn new things, to acquire and process information. I love learning and practicing a new song on the guitar until I can play it from memory with no mistakes. That moment when motor memory takes over from conscious memory is magic. Sometimes when I'm really "into" something, I'll spend all of my free time doing it for some period of time. If it's a finite project, I'll spend all of my free time doing it until it's finished. Others might perceive this as being "obsessed" with something. But why? Why is it better to do a smattering of different things, than to just focus on doing one thing for some period of time. I like being "pre-occupied." When I am hyper-focused on something, the chi flows, and I find the tao. Sometimes I lose track of time, and the hours can pass by in minutes. Usually, I’m doing something that I consider to be productive and fulfilling; but occasionally, my mind is being hob-gobbled by a foolish consistency.